left4dead

A well deserved two weeks holidays after the non-stop action for the past few months at work. And then the cycle starts again, except this time much tougher as we have to deliver a miracle(hopefully!) by March 2011. In all these experiences, I've gained a lot more knowledge and well learning relational skills at work.

On the sidenote: I've realised my social circle has shrunk much, with just a few friends and the boyfriend (who always been the sweetest). I guess sometimes there's just no point in maintaining old friendships, it becomes so superficial where the other party tries to fish information to compare if they're more successful than you. Besides, there's nothing more to talk about other than to reminisce of the past (after awhile becomes boring).

After much rounds of left4dead v2, I think I'm officially getting bored of it and perhaps need to find a new avenue soon. I'm looking forward to the holiday trip as well as H&M spree! Went shopping in orchard only to return with a bag and finding myself yawning after 2 hours. I need to get more tops for work. I guess that's all for now.

A rose petal bloomed at 22 December 2010

update II

I haven't been blogging for couple of months now, simply due to laziness and I've probably reached the stage where my life revolves mostly around work, family, the bf and friends (much lesser now but its all good).
The one significant event that happened was probably the death or funeral of my best friend's father which came as a shock to everyone. I was thinking I'm still too young to be going to a friend's father funeral and my friend's dad is too young (age 50+) to pass away without witnessing his kids getting married and grandkids and all. I suppose end of the day, one should always treasure their health. Yes smoking drinking might be socially acceptable, still there's always a limit.

I've fallen sick twice this year, once in February and this month, only this time I'm taking too long in my opinion to recover. I think I'm a self-confessed workaholic, going to work even though I'm on MC. I find it boring to be stuck at home and not do anything, feels quite useless. Then again when I'm at work, I wish I could go home and rest. contradictions.

Work wise has been progressing very well, I've met most of my personal development goals, went to 4 conferences with one more coming up in November, I've given my presentation (more nerve wrecking than the honors project presentation), improved in my technical skills especially now I get to do minor surgery, it is a really amazing feeling.

Relationship wise I'm happy and content and it's probably the only relationship which I can trust the person completely and feel at ease.

I guess I need to work on my health goals and recreational goals more. :)

A rose petal bloomed at 10 October 2010

update

It's been quite a while since I've blogged.

work/career-wise
I've passed my probation at work.
I've gotten better at my work and time management skills.
And i received my first form e8 (the form that everyone dreads i think...the filing of tax returns!)

social-wise
I attended a orchestra concert at the Victoria concert hall which my colleague was playing.
Gonna be attending another concert at the esplanade end of this month to support my cousin.
I watched the book of eli and alice in wonderland which were pretty good movies in my opinion.
I've been going out alot too with my good friends.
(but could be better must meet up with my and yy).

recreational wise.
I read a couple of books, the newest one by mitch albom.
I'm still looking after my dear plants and buying magazines.
I'm thinking if I should go get the ipod touch.

health-wise
I ought to be exercising more! the best i done was the henderson walk for this year.
I've been eating a lot so that's a good sign.

family-wise
I celebrated my mum birthday with flowers, cake, red packet, card and a dinner at shangri la.
I could try to spend more time with my aunt's family.

relationship-wise
I'm still working on it. hahaha :)

that's all for now! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 20 March 2010

Merry xmas

Haven't been blogging for awhile, partially because blogging about working isn't that appropriate.

Been busy working, carrying out projects, now trying to write the introduction of my report proper.

Had the company DnD last Friday chinese junk boat cruise which was really good though I think i drank a little too much like 4 glasses of wine around there.

Had dinner with a couple of friends, monday was teppanyaki with hc, met up with al for japanese dinner and to catch the avatar movie which ended at 1.45am! Do you know what's a true friend and gentleman, one that pays for dinner, one that watches a 2h45min long show with you, one that sends you home at 2.30am even tho he stays far away and he has to wake up at 6am for his work, one that make sures you are home, one that opens the car door for you, one that shares his chocolate ice cream with you. hardly any singaporean guy still do all these but I'm glad...hahaha no worries we are just good friends.

Oh yes, and jm as well, after havin dinner, this mr nice guy accompanied me shopping, carried my heavy shopping loot of 2 pairs of new shoes and walk around town haha and bought me spinelli cake hehe :)

I had a great time with mel after work, had lunch at coffee club express, took a bus headed down to orchard, shopped around orchard, went to spinelli to chill over cakes and coffee. yay!

I realised as I grew older, when Xmas eve and xmas used to be I got to go out to some happening party, now I rather stay at home and sleep. hahaha... maybe cause the past few weeks of work have been really tiring so I need to re-charge.

till then! Merry xmas!

A rose petal bloomed at 25 December 2009

thankful

I'm feeling happy and relieved now that I managed to call through to patience using skype after two months (the wonders of skype still amazes) and we chatted for 8 minutes, glad to know that she is doing well and enjoying herself in London. Called kat to find out how he is and he's doing well too studying masters in molecular bio in liverpool and he suntanning at the beach. Noreen is doing well starting her masters in leeds and sarah doing hers in drug safety in amsterdam. Well I'm happy for all my good friends that they are doing well in their lives even though everyone is in different parts of the world and not in the same lecture hall. haha...

I'm very thankful to get a good job, well I was worried because i had zero internship experiences, not much working experiences, not much cca involvement and no awards or prizes. but i guess, my dad is right sometimes the employer don't really consider so much about all these but whether you can do the job well.

got things to do: send thank you notes, medical checkup, cut hair and stuff.

in church today (yes i still go to church), I gave my best as my intial sowing into a greater future. for where your money is, there your heart lies also.

A rose petal bloomed at 12 September 2009

yat-ta!

Well, after much sending of resumes, waiting for calls, interviews, more waiting, I had two pretty good offers (one in pharmacology, the other in dentistry) and I've decided to take up one of them which is the job that I want to do, what I'm good at and well is a rewarding experience. So quite a feat to land the dream job in 1.5 months considering I've only became serious in job application after my grad trip in july as well as given the gloomy economic situation. must thank jm for knocking some sense into me about the standard of my cover letter and to mingyue for helping me with the resume. well thank God for everything that has happened. Gonna start work soon! really excited about it and I need to buy a new notebook to jot down stuff.

haha the funny part is even though I had offers, I still had calls for interviews for other jobs but well I guess I should do what I excel in and what I'm passionate about. The good thing is that its two years so i get to either do my phd or postgrad med after that. plus I will be certified and licensed in animal work (lucky not dogs or cats haha!)

Must thank all my supervisors, university tutors, uni mates, good friends (mingyue, perlyn, ryan,jm,nics,ed), relatives and my family for being there throughout.

I did it! yat-ta! This marks the end of my job hunt, still, this give rise to a new beginning of greater success to be achieved.

by the way, happy birthday to my bro! (sidenote: went to tekong today for his enlistment, quite a nice resort, singapore sure win.)

A rose petal bloomed at 11 September 2009

bumble bee

I foresee next week to be a very hectic week, starting with monday where I have two important appointments, accounting to be done followed by the next couple of days where shipment comes in and stock inventory kicks in. fun times.

Anyhow, I got my references and testimonials more or less sorted out, just left with one more to go and I should be fine. The weekend would be spent revising all my lab techniques and making sure I remember everything.

I'm crossing my fingers and toes.

A rose petal bloomed at 27 August 2009

reminiscence

hmmm...was thinking about my graduation trip, a pretty short trip but rather eventful for all the stuff jammed in! got to shop at my favorite places besides primark and eat at my favorite restaurants.

Flight to manchester, took the train down to leeds, left our luggage at the concierge, went shopping, had Mcdonalds and leeds was pretty much empty compared to school days, it's a university city you see. went shopping, had good ol' fish n chips from kirkgate market, the famed market where Marks and Spencer started out selling stuff for a penny each so it was literally a historical visit of sorts. shopping at zara, H&M and had dinner at red chillis!

Next morning, got up to take an hour long cab to manchester. We went to the royal children hospital where my dad met up with his friend, took the cab to trafford centre, bypassing manchester united stadium, but of course the former holds more interest for me. And boy, is trafford centre huge! it's like 3 vivocity put together. We didn't managed to conquer all the shops but got some really good buys there. had nandos for lunch. We took another cab back to leeds and headed out for dinner at casa mia! :)

Third day, went for my graduation ceremony which was short and sweet and had akhbars for dinner which was good.

Last day, early flight in the morning so we had to take the train back to manchester. overall, it was a good trip!

Anyhow the last couple of weeks have been sending out resumes, working, falling sick (no thanks to the haze) and going out watching all my favorite movies (hangover, where got ghost). Well, I'm participating in a contest and hope to win something! heh! that would save me a lot of money! :)
Oh yeah a funny incident that happened last friday, a friend and i went to macs for supper, I was ordering at the counter for a green tea, the guy said "small or med?", I heard it as "smile at me" so I told him, "if i smile at you, would I get a free green tea?". The guy was stunned and I was embarassed but funnily he apologised. I think I better not go back to that macs.

A rose petal bloomed at 19 August 2009

graduation

In my graduation, the only speech made was not the valedictorian but by the Chancellor of the university. Everyone was seated according to course and alphabetical order. It didn't matter if you got first class, 2nd upper, 2nd lower or third class honors, it was a day where everyone academic success was celebrated. the student who got the book prizes were rightfully mentioned in the booklet given. and the whole ceremony lasted 1 hour.

maybe the local education system should take a leaf out of this and learn from it.

sidenote: I am very worried about p, she been uncontactable, missing since graduation which is very unlike her. it been two weeks already and I hope she is fine.

sidenote: i planted a new batch of herbs which i hope will grow soon. got a new plant for my garden as well.

sidenote: i do not know what job i want to do. we'll just wait and see. job hunting not going well as of now so please stop asking thank you.

sidenote: friends who make empty promises should not be considered as friends but frenemies. lol.

A rose petal bloomed at 02 August 2009

italian films and sweet basil

Well, went to catch ice age 3 movie which was really good and funny, sat behind a row of guys, next to me was a caucasian dad and his son, i think the whole cinema there weren't many kids but perhaps made up of adults. Anyhow, seems like animated movies are the only good shows left to watch. Looking forward to orphan, taking of pelham 123, g-force, the hangover and the proposal! gosh why do movies take soooo long to screen in singapore compared to the uk.

Watched two italian films, ti amo and il paradiso which were pretty good and funny...what they say fantastico!

My current batch of basil is growing well, and I just realised i got one little romanian lettuce growing! now growing my second batch of lemon basil.

I got a new mission, to get a new wardrobe of working attire! and that's where the shopping sales come in! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 16 July 2009

updates III

The past two weeks were spent...
working. (learnt lotsa stuff)
job hunting. (hope i get a particular job!)
anticipating for results. (turned out well, with the exception of clinical pharm but overall I got my first class honors degree! and my bro passed his IB, my sis did good for her exams)
going out having my favorite foods.(found a great place, balestier banquet foodcourt)
my graduation in one and a half weeks time. (excited to see my good friends and the shopping!)

:)

A rose petal bloomed at 09 July 2009

butter durians

The weekends, monday and tuesday was spent literally rushing away for the launch. family effort. learnt alot in the process as well.

Loves butter durians! much better than the supposed D24 durians! but rather expensive at $13 per kg still it's once in awhile treat since now is the durian season.

Anyhow met up with wp and jj, went for dinner at bugis and played arcade, daytona improved but my time crisis was a letdown, couldn't even make it pass the first stage, they continued to shoot 3 rounds of hoops and played silent hill while I was too tired to continue.

feel like having teppanyaki. haven't had my fav chicken rice yet.

final degree result out today or tomorrow depending when the letter reaches me.

A rose petal bloomed at 02 July 2009

update

been addicted to playing restaurant city on fb. introduced by my brother.
now my siblings are all busy playing.
quite a game i must say.

got to get my running back into shape. other than that, been going out and enjoying myself. heh. supper at newton circus. tea at goodwood park, horticulture park. desserts at commonwealth. dinners at holland village. swensen at vivocity. lunch at whitley prawn noodles, walks at esplanade, mahjongs and chicken rice at my aunt place.

gardening wise, just planted mint and some flowers, waiting for the seedlings to sprout. :)

A rose petal bloomed at 24 June 2009

anticipating, waiting.

Dinner at the lagoon hawker centre in east coast was good. there was quite a scene, a woman shouting at her husband, but her husband remained calm and didn't retort back. One look at the woman and I understood...she was probably 8-9 months pregnant, must be the hormonal changes occurring. I think she married a good man. the husband probably too happy waiting for his kid to come out. hahaha... :)

Anyhow, an incident at the botanic food court left me embarrassed, ordered tea at the fruit and dessert stall, which left the young guy laughing away.

2 more weeks to my results.
4 more weeks to my graduation.

hopefully i land a job by august.

A rose petal bloomed at 17 June 2009

summer return

Took a cab at 5.30am, cab driver was a really nice guy from turkmenistan. well got a bit of motion sickness on the freeway.

So flight back, watched five movies non stop (taken, bride wars, confession of a shoppaholic, the reader and let's handsome) which were really good.

Been eating my favorite foods, going to botanic gardens in the morning, harvesting my vegetables, gonna start planting the second batch, helping out my parents, and trying to get the hang of accounting.

had a great time last night, dinner at old airport, chats at the singapore flyer and the long drive home. thank you. more to come. hee :)

shall be nice and not complain about the hot weather.

A rose petal bloomed at 12 June 2009

travel woes.

turning twenty three soon, must grow up and act like an adult.

spent 15 mins at barclays today counting out 1 pennies and 2 pennies in front of the counter because they had to partition out into 1 pound equivalent bags. final amount of my accumulated pennies over three years was £4.20. thank goodness there was very few people at the bank if not it'll be so embarrassing!

walked to the train station. bought the cheapest train tix at £10 (one way)because there were no trains running on sunday directly to manchester airport until 8am! unless i take a £60 cab from my place all the way to the airport. nah i'm trying to save money here. the downside, i have to take a cab to leeds railway station at 4am, take the 4.25am train to manchester picaddilly railway station, take the 5.40am bus to manchester airport. take the 9am plane back to changi airport. take cab home. super stressful. very very annoying as i'm carrying 1 luggage and 2 bags. ohwells, after that i foresee i would need lots of massage after that. now you know why i hate travelling so much. haha

time to sleep. gloomy weather again.

A rose petal bloomed at 05 June 2009

thursdays aint my day

wednesdays have always been a good day
thursdays not so

for once, the weather turned gloomy and cold again. got back my clinical pharm coursework, not a very good mark i must say, think everyone did really badly because the lady the UG office said congrats, you got a good mark. shall take her word for it then. don't understand how the previous cohort got it so easy.

anyhow, must thank a certain friend for bearing the brunt as i was annoyed with the internet, stressed that i misplaced an important thing but anyway all's good now. though the friend wasn't actually paying attention to me but surfing away. hahaha...thank you. i owe you one. :)

A rose petal bloomed at 04 June 2009

bring on the summer

my final exam went alright. 3 hours. 8 pages. blister on my hand. post-exam discussion of the gathering turned out various options...which i'm looking forward to
thursday - BBQ at hyde park
friday - lunch at brio!

Got sandwiches, went home, played a few rounds of computer games, went out to town, went shopping at primark, chinese supermarket, subway, went back due to sleepiness and blisters on feet. supposed to go meet the rest for a football game against lecturers but was too tired having only slept 2 hours the night before. no thanks to noisy neighbors!

I'm grateful
that my internet worked today
that i got my instant noodles that i got my exam over and done with
that i was able to have a good nap.

I'm quite a easy person to satisfy. hahaha... and i realised some stuff i will never look at it in the same way again. for example, carl's junior and subway. thank goodness i don't eat there! :)

hasn't dawned on me that i'm done with my degree. wow. well time to relax! before i hit the books in july.

A rose petal bloomed at 03 June 2009

shocked.

internet was down the whole day, after much restarting and shutting down since 10am to 7pm, it refuse to connect. it was only after i diaable and enable the LAC it finally worked!

nap was horrendous. it was the night terror except it came during the day time. in my dream, i felt a force, a figure, holding my hands down, and a super heavy weight on my stomach, the figure touched my mouth with his mouth, i'm pretty sure its a guy, sucking the life out of me and i was panicking and praying so hard. every time i stop, he kept sucking away till i almost fell lifeless. it was so real that it felt scary. think my sis experienced this before in tokyo. i opened my eyes and gasping for air. that was how real the damn dream was. feeling better now.

went with p to get flames, we were waiting at the lift, the lift door open and i saw a spray of water shooting out, turns out to be three guys (the most annoying race) with a water gun. they didn't even say sorry but laughed it off. idiots. happened to yy yesterday when some guys in a car drove past and sprayed water at us. annoying immature idiots.

less than 20 hours to my final exams and graduation.

oh yes, happy birthday to my sis! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 02 June 2009

casa mia! an italian affair

Had a great dinner with yy and p at casa mia grande at millenium square.

starters:
tomato basil soup
mixed salad
calamari fritti

main course:
yy: salmon fillet which was so good it literally melts in your mouth
p: lobster ravioli with cherry tomatoes
s: italian meat balls with penne. house favourite and specialty.

desserts:
chai tea
2 chocolate fudge cakes with vanilla ice cream and orange zest
tiramisu

drinks:
orange juice
ginger ale
iced water.

note: the menu was in italian, description according to simple layman terms.

time taken from arrival to end of meal: 7pm to 9.45pm, really a typical three hour italian affair.

amount of pounds paid: 75.46 for three persons that was pretty reasonable considering the amount of food we finished.

it was voted best restaurant in 2007 in leeds. my second time there and it still as awesome, better than izzizi.

:)

P.S haha somebody say two days cannot chat end up still chat. :P

A rose petal bloomed at 02 June 2009

mid year packing of pieces

Body aching today from lugging 18kg worth of my stuff to yy place. thank you yy for being sucha great friend. always. :)

some guys can't be trusted as such, its better i do it by myself or keep quiet. enough said.

2 more days to exam. everyone not entirely sure on what we must study. ohwell i have yet to understand the statistics about it. just want to get it over and done with.

glad i got most stuff sorted out now.
having scrambled eggs and toast for breakfast. dinner should be italian fare later at casa mia! :)

and my favourite radio station has started playing my favourite song, jai ho.

oh yeah, today's both my grandma birthdays. half of 2009 has sailed by. wow.

A rose petal bloomed at 01 June 2009

jai ho

penning down my thoughts before i sleep.
lots of stuff going through my mind right now.

to chase my dream,
one has to take desperate but harsh measures, brutal as it may be
every string of emotional attachment have to be seared
there is absolutely no wish to lose myself once again
past records are testament i flounder in this aspect
there is no time for mind games
greatness is waiting for me
it's one decision or another, no room for both
the past has to be burned
the present requires sacrifices to be made
the future holds the hope
it doesn't matter what people see
i'm the ghost, i do not tally in one place but drift as the winds blow me
until i reach my final destination
will i heave a sigh of relief.

sidenote: this song well does mean alot to me, the time it played, my research finally decided did show some results after two long weeks of desperation.

Finally by Ce Ce Peniston

Meeting Mister Ri-ight, the man of my dreams
The one who showed me true lo-o-ove or at least it seems
With brown coco ski-in and curly black hair-air-air
It's just the way he looks at me, that gentle lovin' stare
Finally-y you come alo-o-ong
The way I feel about ya it just can't be wro-ong
If you only knew-ew the way I feel about you-ou
I just can't describe i-it, oh-no-no

Finally it has happened to me, Right in front of my face
My feelin's can't descri-ibe it, Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face, And I just cannot hi-ide it
Finally it has happened to me, Right in front of my face
My feelin's can't descri-ibe it, Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face, And I just cannot hi-ide it

It seems so many times he seemed to be the one
But all he ever wanted was to have a little fun
But now you come alo-ong and brightened up my wor-or-orld
In my heart I feel it I'm that special kind of girl
Finally-y you come alo-o-ong
The way I feel about ya it just can't be wro-ong
If you only knew-ew the way I feel about you-ou
I just can't describe i-it oh-no-no

Finally it has happened to me, Right in front of my face
My feelin's can't descri-ibe it, Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face, And I just cannot hi-ide it
Finally it has happened to me, Right in front of my face
My feelin's can't descri-ibe it, Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face, And I just cannot hi-ide it

Finally-y-y
Oh... finally-y-y-y yeah-eah, yeah-eah
Uh-uh-oh-oh, ... yeah-yeah-ow ..., ... yeah-yeah-ow ....

Finally it has happened to me, Right in front of my face
My feelin's can't descri-ibe it, Finally it has happened to me

A rose petal bloomed at 30 May 2009

crash and burn

is it possible to know a person yet not understand the person?
or to understand the person yet not know the person?

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the dark that fills my life
i somehow find you and i collide....

into a dazzling explosion mediated by anti-matter.

A rose petal bloomed at 28 May 2009

p.s i love you

Thought this song was meaningful.
I knew I love you before i met you by the Savage Garden

A rose petal bloomed at 28 May 2009

waterfalls

I seen a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come
Leaving a trace of not one God-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of grey
I pray all ten fade away
Seldem praise Him for the sunny days
And like His promise is true
Only my faith can undo
The many chances I blew
To bring my life to a new
Clear blue and unconditional skies
Have dried the tears from my eyes
No more lonely cries
My only bleedin' hope is for the folk who can't cope
With such an endurin' pain that it keeps 'em in the pouring rain
Who's to blame for shootin'caine into you're own vein
What a shame you shoot and aim for someone else's brain
You claim the insane and name this day in time
For fallin' prey to crime
I say the system got you victim to your own mind
Dreams are hopeless aspirations
In hopes of comin' true
Believe in yourself
The rest is up to me and you

A rose petal bloomed at 27 May 2009

my right eye

I've got a mystery to solve... or maybe you would like to help me out on this.

I woke up this morning and opened my eyes. thing is my right eye hurt as if someone had punched me. it's not red or swollen, in fact it looks normal. when i open my right eye, it's not painful, but when i opened it bigger, it hurts. blnking hurts as well, but not so much. when i lightly touched it, the pain can be felt at the outer corners of my eye and above it at the superior aspects of the eye orbit.
and it's so painful i had to change my msn convo font to 16pt. i don't want to go onto the net for self-diagnosis, so that i won't panick.

anyone ever had this problem? i'm pretty sure i didn't hit my eye against the wall or table because there's pillows. not sure if its compression as well.

P.S to my sister: help me solve this one!

A rose petal bloomed at 26 May 2009

angels and demons.

so the red chilli dinner was good, first time we managed to finish the food and didn't have to doggy bag it. Caught the movie angels and demons at 1030pm and it was absolutely brilliant! been waiting for it since last september and it was as good as the book. can't wait for the next book "the last symbol" by dan brown to be out. 15 september!

and thank you to my dad and mum for the lovely clothes from tokyo!

time to plan and not be a lazy bum.
2 more weeks and i'm back!

hahaha and then it's chelsea vs ac milan in winning 11! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 23 May 2009

absolut truth

Sometimes you think the truth might be the truth, and when you grow to accept it, the person tells you it was just a lie. and it had to be one day before my exams which i think is a cruel emotional joke. wow, i don't know what to believe anymore. seriously.

so, headed out with p for dinner, we went to the library pub for beer and burgers! knocked back only half a pint of heineken and i got a slight headache so we went home early.

tomorrow gonna be exciting! we are going to the M&S 1penny sale! red chilli! angels and demons movie! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 22 May 2009

first exam

I don't get it why they pluck out the pretty flowers from the flower bed!! its spring not autumn or winter! poor pretty flowers.

anyhow, 20 mins before exam. went out with patience
10 minutes before exam, cannot find the geography building! was heading in right direction, called katundu, went to great hall, kat saw me and shouted for me, walked with k and sarah to this tiny old school building.
8 minutes before exam, went to the toilet...really old school fashion
5 minutes before exam, sat down at my seat thinking it was free sitting only to realise it's the wrong seat and change to my correct seat no 16!
30s to exams, realised I didn't switch off my hp, hoping nobody would call me if not I get penalised for cheating.
1 min AFTER exams...i was thinking did I just take an exam? passed charis the notes. kat was in shock. kat hope you are feeling better im pretty sure you will do well for it!:)

now im just hoping i got all the calculations right. shall not think too much for now. lunch time.

A rose petal bloomed at 20 May 2009

the friendship list

Less than 20 hours to my first exam. still hasn't dawn on me that I got exams. no panics. no stress. maybe because this is much easier than the dissertation. just go in, do the questions like I've always been doing and I know I'm fine.

So, I'm actually looking forward to turning 23 in 2 weeks time plus. yes this spells the end of my 22nd year. a person once said to me, 22 is the start of a downhill. hell no! 22 was the year I got my honors degree. i got my dissertation project. I got all 1st class for my exams. i got my friends.

leads me to the next point, that i begin to reflect on my past friendships and i know its time for me to meet up with those friends who were there for me at those crucial moments. so here's the meet up plan so far
1) ming yue! aka my best friend for a decade and counting
2) jm aka psa guy
3) nick w aka the golf guy
4) justin aka the ttsh guy who competing with me to get into duke/nus
5) derrick aka accounting guy
6) desmond/wp aka guy who accidentally bumped my eye during tennis
7) sean (sw) aka the dog guy
8) emmanuel aka good friends since sec3 guy
9) alston aka army guy
10) chao rui aka npcc guy
11) alex aka the sumitomo guy
12) yen aka the merrill lynch guy
13) jonathan aka the twin
14) joseph aka the crazy buddy guy
15) leon aka the jap food buddy guy

to my dad and mum reading this: the aka is for you to remember...they must be thinking yay our daughter got hope already! no la, just FRIENDS ONLY. which reminds me of the pact my bro made, my bro is so concerned about my future happiness he is willing to part with 500 bucks for our bet. 500 is alot for his zara, tedbaker, hugo clothes and shoes come to think of it plus his guitar gears and amps. and my sister made a pact too but i can't remember what it was all i know it was one year then i forgot the rest.

okay time to revise one last time. :)

A rose petal bloomed at 19 May 2009

nostalgia

not fair i also wanna go tokyo now! escape from exams, go shopping, go eat all my favorite food. like what daddy said...nostalgia.

dear mummy, if you are reading this, if you got time can you go to the azabu juban shiseido drugstore or any other drugstore to buy the shiseido facial clay mask? but if got no time, then never mind i just use your SK-II....hahahahahaha just kidding.

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so i went out today, guy bumped into me in the lift, got my lunch from the usual sandwich shop (love the fragrance of coffee on a sunny day), while paying for my sandwich and drink, the guy ask me where am i from. I in the blurred state, say huh, thank you and left, leaving the sandwich guy dumfounded.

so i walked back, while crossing the street, another guy saw me and started looking at the ground and almost bumped into me.

got my laundry credits.

walking to one stop to get groceries, heard someone shout my name, turned out it was Sarah (pharm student from my course), chatted with her, p came along so sarah left for the library and p and I went to get groceries, got my stella artois.

went out with p for dinner. these two guys at the counter said they saw p and me pictures on the internet. yeah right, the only pictures i have with p is on fb and our profile is limited to confidential to friends. so they ask where p and i were from. at first i said south africa and they laugh it off. okay that's not working. so i said starts with S and they said singapore and i was amazed they know where sg is.

i don't get it why they don't ask the other chinese girls. i keep getting questions about where I'm from. maybe i look like asian, but i speak with british accent? well i would think that if people saw an asian with a black, they know we are local brits, since the chinese always hangs out with other chinese. then again, most of the people i hang out with are blacks.

and i'm gonna try to rap properly to the song dead n gone

and im drinking beer while studying. heh.

and another pick up line today from another guy which made me laugh, but well that's a story for another day.

A rose petal bloomed at 19 May 2009

red skies in the evening

Well, got back my second mock exam paper, got a 68 for that, so an average of 70 (1st class) despite not studying for it. not bad. consider after busting my brain cells for my dissertation, i couldn't be bothered to study already.

finish the race well.

and I can't believe i have to deal with this again. it's always one day before my exams that this kinda stuff have to happen. seriously. i wish i could say i dun give a hoot about it but i do.

i'm the actress that deserves an oscar
i've been playing her for so long
i'm not sure who is who anymore
it's tiring but i'm stronger than this.

even the greatest of minds do get sent to the psychiatric hospital. [House show]

A rose petal bloomed at 18 May 2009

monday morning

Headed out at 630pm, and the weather was once in agreement with me and stopped raining with those annoying winds. got dinner at flames with zut. got home watched desperate housewives while eating dinner. sunny weather once more and then it started raining.

4am and I'm still awake. the sun is still sleeping although now should be its wake up time. seriously, the weather feels like autumn and not spring! urgh. horrid weather for the whole of this week. the weather is seriously screwing up my clock, my dinners get later and my naps longer and my procrastination greater. but hey! i been working my butt off since september last year till now without any break till 7 may! hahaha

anyhow, this is the first time im actually feeling slack about exams. data analysis. don't know why i should read 5 chapters on stuff I've known before. open book. think it should be all just formulas and drawing graphs and calculations. not so much on extrapolating information i reckon.

anyhow, rena gone back to the philippines for good. i don't like goodbyes. well she will always be the best domestic helper.

having withdrawal symptoms seriously. wow.

i can't believe time has passed by so fast and i'm studying for my final exams.

and i have to go figure out where is the geography building and guess what there only 20 people taking this exam. that how small the no. of pharm students there are. and that tells you how only 10% of the whole cohort likes pharm and how the rest hates it. plus the fact that 10% of pharmacologist retire every year, i think there should be lotsa job opportunities for me in this field since nobody wanna do this kinda job. hahahaha :)

to justin and nick: if ya reading this, all the best for your exams today! xxx

A rose petal bloomed at 18 May 2009

the climb

im having a deja vu moment
when reality hit me all of a sudden.
but i know its for the best.

A rose petal bloomed at 17 May 2009

the haunting past.

sometimes the past refuses to remain in the past and comes to haunt you in the present.
doesn't matter if it's 6 years ago or 3 days ago, the past knows not the value of time.
sometimes it may be other's doing, other times your own doing.
and you wish you could turn back time.
but time knows you not and carries on ticking.

sigh...

A rose petal bloomed at 17 May 2009

the match part II

after a 3 hour intense battle of wits and words, I've finally managed to even out the score at 3:3!

hahahaha :)

A rose petal bloomed at 16 May 2009

tracking numbers

just to keep track.
the new score is 3:2
I'm sure i can do better than this!

note to self:
throw rubbish
buy groceries
do laundry
study.

no more shopping.

an attempt to sleep early only resulted in me waking up at 2am. weird body clock timings.

the first time i saw lightning and thunder in the uk. might have been a prelude to doosmday.

:)

A rose petal bloomed at 16 May 2009

hot black unit.

Almost done with my second round of revision for wed exam.

Anyhow just a random chanced observation I made that I click pretty well with people who share something in common with me and that's we all used to belong to the...

National Police Cadet Corps!

hooray for the hot black uniform, the black boots with the metal studs, the marching, the fancy footdrills, the marksmanship, tent building, the kayaking, the leadership camps, the crazy runs at 3am in the morning, the campfire songs, rifle shooting gun wielding, the push ups, water parade, change parade, the promotion tests, the power to command and my favorite knock it down 20! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 14 May 2009

cold week

Been sick for the past few days, usual flu hopefully it's not the swine flu since im in the uk. lost my appetite lately. not good. had diarrhoea after eating pizzas. same thing happened to p so we blame the pizzas! hahaha

bought groceries from one stop, went to nic place and cooked teochew porridge...had a hard time trying to open the can with the funny can opener but well we had a great dinner and watching southpark and house online. went home and it was windy, rainy and super duper cold. think that what made my flu worse.

got to bed at 2am last night woke up at 730am today, watched desperate housewives, had breakfast, now i just need to go study.

ciao

A rose petal bloomed at 14 May 2009

the match

Pretty surprising.

After a 3 hour long chat with a friend, I realise sometimes I might just have to eat the humble pie or eat my words when I reach a point of self-realisation. It's probably been me floating up in the skies so high and holding onto so many balloons and someone comes along and pops them one by one and brings me back down to earth.

I think I might have just met my match.

A rose petal bloomed at 14 May 2009

run off the mill

It only dawned on me that my first exam is next wednesday and well I'm still enjoying myself. no sweat. since i've got 72 for the mock. maybe it might come across as a little cocky but well shall start revising tonight to make sure i know my stuff.

And one week ago, i've just jumped on the bandwagon... not facebook, something else which has been more of an experiment to me.

been watching episodes of the secret millionaire, really inspired by that. of multi-millionaires going undercover in poorer areas to find charitable organization or people that truly deserve to have hope.

i need to go on an errand run but the weather is sunny but very cold at the moment for the whole of this week. dang!! whenever i'm working, the weather is sunny hot. when i wanna go out, its gloomy and cold! not cool.

recently, a close friend of mine just went into a metamorphosis state to just friends. sorry, but you are just another hypocrite which I need to get rid off in my life.

in this life, there are very few people i trust: p, nic, jm, nick, my. these are the people i don't backstab or gossip about. and the people closest to my heart.

i guess the whole past year, it look as if i've been cutting out alot of friends. i had enough of hypocrisy. do not preach to me when you are fooling around. thank you.

A rose petal bloomed at 12 May 2009

fast tips

quick health tips:
1) pimple-free smooth looking face: dissolve two tablets of aspirin into honey, apply as mask, leave on for 10 mins, wash off. do it once a fortnight.
2) brighter nails: soak nails in listerine mouthwash (green or yellow) for 15 mins, rinse and dry. OR apply 3 drops of tea tree oil (get from The Body Shop) with cotton tip onto nails once daily.
3) whiter teeth: add pinch of bicarbonate soda (baking powder from supermarkets like ntuc or cold storage) into your toothpaste and brush per normal. twice daily.

tried and tested. :)

A rose petal bloomed at 12 May 2009

a different sort of list.

my birthday is comin' and I don't feel like celebratin'
maybe because I know I'm turnin' older...

well i just put this list up if ever you decided to get me a gift and you don't need to wrack your brains or spend a fortune.

(not necessary tho because there's nothing i like better than a good meal with good friends)

- nude nail polish
- norah jones cd
- breakfast at tiffany dvd

other than that, i pretty much have everything else...besides a bf, a job and a car. hahahahaha :)

A rose petal bloomed at 11 May 2009

hidden motives

Sat through being an assesor for the final presentation group.

Dinner at red chilli with yy and p was good! :)

Had MacDs for lunch, went shopping and got a new pair of shades from r.island and head band from m.selfridge as a reward for working so hard on my dissertation! reminds me when m.y got 3 dresses after hers!

things i'm looking forward to:
1) wolverine movie with p
2) angels and demons movie with p
3) finishing my exams
4) going to jp in august
5) getting a job!
6) going to my cousin joe POP at tekong!

oh yeah, my birthday would be coming soon in 4 weeks time! on the day of my birthday, I be on the plane back, 30,000 feet high in the sky. hahaha

saw cute tall guy walking to worsley. :)

a long time ago we used to be friends
but i haven't thought of you lately at all
if ever a greeting i send to you
with a sweet soul i intend

and i realise that me and you could no longer be good friends
cuz you don't understand me as i am.

back to gaming :)

A rose petal bloomed at 09 May 2009

dissertation madness

Dissertation over.
I'm not feeling elated but rather lost and well there's always this feeling that I wished I could have done better!
presentation went well.
printing of report was a mad rush when the color printer kept having problems, it wasn't the ordinary color printer in the cluster because that came out rubbish so I had to use the one in the lab which took really long to print one page and I had 8 pages. anyhow, after I submitted my work, realised a few tiny errors here and there and I should stop panicking and get over it. guess i'm just a born-worrier.

good thing is my xiao bai cai is growing well back home. :)
i saw a bentley limousine today! :)

A rose petal bloomed at 07 May 2009

the 1938 young island

Had a mock exam today, used my notes tho I'm not supposed to. heh.

got back my past exam mock paper from last week and i got a 72!

a really interesting video introduced by nic on Singapore in 1938! amazing stuff! I think sg looks so much better then!

A rose petal bloomed at 05 May 2009

red alert

Nice funky song... red alert by basement jaxx. think it was probably ahead of its time. You would think it from this current year but it actually dates back to the early 1990s.

Basement Jaxx - Red Alert

[LYRICS]
Red alert! Red alert!
It's a catastrophe
But Don't worry.....Don't panic
Ain't nothin' goin' on but history, yeah
But it's alright, don't panic

And the music keeps on playin' on and on
And the music keeps on playin on and on (repeat)

On and on
On and on
And the music keeps on playing on and on ( repeat )

The way you shake, shake, shake, shake
The way you shake, shake, shake, shake
Baby

Yippie-yay-yay-yay-yo
Yippie-yay-yay-yay-yo
Yippie-yay-yay-yay-yo
Yippie-yay-yay-yay-yo

On and on
On and on
And the music keeps on playin' on and on ( repeat )

And the music keeps on playin on and on....

A rose petal bloomed at 04 May 2009

strange folks

I like to live in my own little cloud of anonymity.

Friday night was spent having a late night dinner at charcos and watching britain got talent.

Saturday was spent doing laundry, buying groceries, referencing and I met the strangest or weirdest guy.
At the lift..
Guy: are you going up?
Me: Yes.
Steps into lift, pressed the 5th floor button
Guy steps in at this point in my mind: is he going to steal my money (am starting to get negative vibes)
He pressed the 4th floor.
Guy: Are you from Japan?
Me: No
Guy: China?
Me: No (annoyed)
Guy: where from?
Me: starts with S
Guy: sorry my geography not that good
Me: Singapore
Guy: Is singapore close to japan and china?
Me: (thinking) stupid question.
4th floor...
Guy hesitates to step out and he eventually did and turned to the flat on the right.
5th floor:
I step out and saw strange Guy looking at me upwards from the stairwell (there's a glass door in between sort of)
I quickly dashed into my flat.

you know the famous book, "5 people you meet in Heaven" by Mitch albom? I'm gonna write a book "10 strange people you meet on earth" and that guy would be one of them.

Today, woke up had brunch, went with zut to buy groceries, to and fro in 30 mins flat! what a record! and well's that bout it really. 3.5 more days and I'm done with you CCN! yes freedom is coming! i can see it! :)

now i gotta re-write my discussion. :(

A rose petal bloomed at 04 May 2009

sherrie day

If I was president/prime minister of SG for one day, I would

Ban all cats and dogs from roads and public places

Declare that day to be Sherrie Chocolate Day where everybody don't do work but eat chocolate and enjoy life

Build more female toilets to cater to the long traffic queues

Everybody has to donate S$1 to support the healthcare of mentally ill patients and cancer patients, a whopping S$3.8 million dollars could go a long way

Everyone have to take public transport to cut down on emission gases

That people who have family or relatives in jail must visit them

Celebrate all things chicken beginning with chicken rice and KFC

Remove the differences between art and science streams, as well as those 6 year IB programme which I think is rubbish

yay!:)

there's one more, all serial rapists to undergo chemical castration.

A rose petal bloomed at 01 May 2009